I started writing this blog to let out my thoughts and feelings without disturbing anyone because apparently people are very busy and don't have time to listen to what others are going through and well frankly I don't blame anyone for doing so because everybody has their own problems to deal with so anyway i posted on this blog a couple of times, may be it helped me but then i stopped writing i don't know y specifically. now i am back but why am I back, I cant figure that out. I used to think that once i get busy in my daily routine i will forget about my problems and will have a better life. Now I have a great job, good relations with family, good friends, exercise daily but still there is a strange feeling like I am missing something, I don't know what I am missing. Is it something that i stopped doing or someone that i am not in contact with anymore, something i left behind? I don't know, i am very confused about it that is why i returned to writing this blog may be this will help me find out what I am missing. May be I have an empty slot for someone special that I haven't met yet. when i got ignored by the people i loved and valued most in my life, I planned to block the world out, let no one in because according to me the only person that can hurt you is the one to whom you have given the right to hurt you yourself, so don't give that right to anyone be conservative, decide who is really important to you and worth keeping in your life and only be with them the rest of the world can go to hell, they can only see the outer shell that you put on and can never break through unless they have earned it. I thought this decision would make me happy and it did for a while, I started feeling special but then again there is something still missing, what is it, I am so confused about it
